I've been apart of a relentless struggle for far too long. The struggle haunts me daily and has made me seem like a broken record as I lament the details to those who will listen. Why can't I solve this problem? Believe me I've sought all kinds of wisdom, advice, facts, and research to aid my quest, and still nothing has created change. In fact, the situation has become more challenging, not better. I've also tried a large number of strategies to no avail. Where does the answer lie? Is there an answer? What is the purpose of this struggle?
The bottom line is that my idea of success in the situation differs completely from all the other people involved. I've thought long and hard about their definition of success for this situation, and I simply don't agree--no matter how I look at their success scenario, it doesn't spell success to me or match up with any of my research or reading either. I just can't accept that definition, and no one is able to convince me that the situation in place is a successful situation. However, those in charge differ in opinion than me dramatically. Perhaps in time, I'll find out that I am very wrong. Perhaps I'll see a new light, but with all the thinking, research, and consultation I've sought, I just can't see it that way now.
In many ways, I'm experiencing a similar struggle with our current government administration--their choices don't match up with what I believe is positive, humane, and forward-thinking. On the contrary, I'm watching this greedy administrative team make one backwards, greedy, harmful, deadly decision after another. It's very discouraging.
At least with regard to the greedy governing individuals, there are many who think like me and desire a more humane, peaceful, positive leadership team. I can work with those individuals and groups to make change.
As far as the other struggle, I will do what I can within the structure that exists, and then I'll have to let go as I've tried everything I can think of, and nothing has worked--nothing at all. Perhaps in time I'll come up with another idea that does work. Until then I have to step back. Onward.
